Ok, I know I have very little reason to complain about my school right now. But I am just really overwhelmed by all of it.

I have German. Which I guess I do understand, for the most part. But the parts I don't get are the cases for everything- dative etc. And I almost get it, I just can't do it as fast as I want to be able to, or think I should be able to.

I love Genetics. I love the teacher, I love the class, I love the project. But it is so time consuming. And I feel like I don't have enough time to concentrate on the studying part of the class.

Ecology is fun. I think it's a little more work than the teacher realizes. But I like it all the same. At least the teacher is new, and so she wants a lot of feedback. She said our class are the guinea pigs for her first semester.

My Chemistry class isn't too bad. I think it is definitely worth the 5 credits earned for completing it. I understand it, I just feel like I don't have enough time to devote to it.

And Arc. Well. Its a theory and history class about archaeology. And pretty much the only reason I'm taking it is because it was the only class that would actually do something for me. If I am able to get another class with it, I can get into the honors program. That is the only reason I'm taking it. Plus, I guess it'll look good.

I really don't like tutoring. I mean, when I'm there its alright, but the hour commute really sucks, and those 2 hours are a big chunk of time where I can't do anything. And I feel like I just confuse the kids instead of help them when they come to me. So I kinda feel like a failure in that respect. I keep hoping it will get better. I dunno. Maybe it will, and maybe it won't. Only 12 more weeks of it.

I guess my big problem is time management. I just feel like I have no time to study everything adequately, and have time for myself. I need to have an hour or two just where I don't have to do anything. And then I feel guilty for that hour because I could use it to be studying.

And then this weekend I wanted to go to the Sevendust concert in Milwaukee, but I have a test the day after, and I know damn well I won't get any studying done for it. So thats kind of a big disappointment. The concert I really want to go to is Rob Zombie in April (I think thats when), and I just don't know if I can afford to do it time-wise or money-wise.

This really sucks. I'm already thinking about spring break. I think this is well, the third week of class. I have a while to go yet.

I guess I just need to take it one day at a time, and plan really well. And I guess I should post this damn thing and get off my ass. And well, sit my ass down and study.

I need to remember that there is an end, and there is light at the end. And it will be worth it. I need my inspiration back, my motivation. I feel like I'm just kinda stuck in a rut, frankly. Well. Stuck and also at a loss for time. I dunno. I'm confused, and tired. And I just wanna be at home.